Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Waiting to Bleed

It sounds like an album title.

Now I know that the 2WW is not as hard as waiting for your cycle to regulate after a miscarriage. At least with the 2WW, there is an end in sight. Right now, I have no idea whether I'll start bleeding tomorrow or in three months. Considering the miscarriage was so early, I thought that I would be back to a proper cycle quite fast. It has actually only been about a month so far, but it's the not knowing that is killing me.

Maybe if I'd celebrated the pregnancy, I would welcome the chance to mourn, but I feel as though the way things rolled out, all I want is to start trying again. Soon. The shitty part is, I've been PMS-ing and cramping and feeling like I'm going to bleed. For over a week. And nothing happens (this coming from a girl who had very few PMS symptoms before). I've even been wearing a pad or a liner the last few days, because I'm SO sure it's coming, and I get disappointed every time I go to the bathroom.

From what Dr. Google has told me, some women don't get their periods for months after a miscarriage, but that seems to be the case more for women who lose the pregnancies later in their first trimester. I have no idea what it's supposed to be for earlier losses. If any of you could weigh in with your experiences, I'd love to hear.

I just don't know what to do with myself in this forced time out! I miss TTC-ing. That's kind of crazy.

To help kill the time, I will watch one of my favourite YouTube videos to help with the mantra! (unfortunately, the embedding function is disabled, but if you like adorable kids, click here).


  1. So sorry to hear about your ups and downs with all this. But I know it will happen. Keep writing and keep positive.

  2. thinking of you and sending healing thoughts! with one of my early miscarriages my period started within 10 days. For the other I did have to take the inducing drugs. but I think it was on its way without them, so I would avoid them if possible. take care.

  3. Ugh. I hope this is over for you soon and you can try again!

  4. Oh God...I hated that part of pregnancy. You know...honestly....all of pregnancy sucks. It's really really scary. I hated being pregnant. However, that being said, I promise..babies have a way of making you forget how awful this whole process is.

    Best of luck...I'll be checking back.