We got to meet our baby yesterday. Despite being really cramped in a tiny room and being in extreme pain with a really overfull bladder (I was scared that if I wasn't really, really full, I wouldn't be able to see anything!), I was allowed to pee out half of it and then Devon, me and the tech got comfy enough to enjoy the experience.
And oh, what an experience. I didn't realize how much I needed this proof that I was actually pregnant... that I'm actually going to be a mom in a mere 7-ish months. It was glorious. And it was even more glorious to see Devon's reactions and have her experience this with me. Actually, she saw more things than I did, because I was in an awkward position and the tech kept telling me to relax my stomach muscles (I kept lifting my head up to look at the screen).
Seeing the yolk sac and the little alien blob inside it was indescribable. It was very hard to see, but we did see the little heartbeat with a bit of shifting. And then without warning, we heard, "boomboom, boomboom, boomboom" and the tech said, "that's your baby's heartbeat. We had no idea we'd be able to hear it so early. I immediately starting crying and Devon covered her mouth in (wonderful) shock.
I had an initial scare when the tech said the baby was measuring 6w5days - about 4 days behind. Then he changed to "around 7 weeks" and then when he printed out the photo, it said 7wks1day (a day behind?). Due date changed one day later to January 15.
Baby looks good. Yolk sack looks good. Heartbeat was around 150.
We are thrilled. It made everything real... and just gave me hope that if I haven't lost him/her yet, I won't at all. Not like I have a ton of control over that, but every day it gets easier to believe that this is it. That I'm finally going to be a mama.
I haven't introduced a fetus blog name, but we've had a name for this little guy for months pre-conception. It's a long story, but every time we drove to the clinic for an IUI, we would crank Black Eyed Peas "Boom Boom Pow" at full blast and dance and sing "Gotta get dat Boom Boom Boom". Baby's name is BoomBoom. Hearing the heartbeat yesterday makes it feel so much more right, and I think I'm coming away from my fear a little bit and wanting to share it with you. (And yes, if it was twins, it was going to be BoomBoom and Pow).
Without further ado, please meet our teeniest, tiniest BoomBoom.