Okay, so I’m not a mom yet, but I'm going to be soon (January 2013).
Crazy – yes. Lesbian – yes. So let’s define the latter two.
Lesbian: Easy definition. I am a woman who likes other women. In fact, I’m married to the most gorgeous and amazing woman I have ever met, and I’m incredibly lucky.
Crazy: I call myself crazy because I’ve struggled with depression for the better (worse) half of my life. Like not just your “normal” depression, but your institutionalized, heavily medicated depression. The kind where they keep you in isolation on suicide watch, and when they don’t know what to do with you anymore, they shock your brains out with way too much Electro-Convulsive Therapy.
Now before you send the social workers, hear me out - I’m better. I haven’t had a depressive episode in years. I still take medication for my mental health, but I am doing everything I have to do to make it so I’ll be able to carry a baby safely for both mother and child, as well as my partner, Devon, who will be extremely involved in the process.
My name is Lex. I have wanted a baby for as long as I remember. Like since I was three years old. I’ve wanted to carry a child in my belly. I get those crazy hormonal urges where my belly literally aches to be filled. My greatest fear is to wake up when my eggs are old and realize I’ve missed out on the most important gift of my life.
So, this blog is a place where I will be writing about my journey to become a mother: From how it affects my marriage, my health, my family, my baby’s health, my community, and the rest of my life.